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Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Some people just don't learn their lesson about Plagiarizing

Note: She removed her blog 

Hey everyone!
In my last post, I mentioned how MagicDream had a blog that copied my blog, which she took down.
Well guess what, It's back up! It's been up for about a week now, and I've warned her, and so have my friends. 
Well, let's spin back in time before I start talking about her current blog. Months ago, back in May, her old blog, "Magic797's blog" (That was her old username) was plagiarizing my and snowyclaw's blog! I posted about this TWICE on my old blog, Animal Jam Freedom and I mentioned how this act is called plairgiazing and IS ILLEGAL and I even showed the copyrights that Snowyclaw and I have on the bottom of our blogs! If you would like to see the posts, you can CLICK HERE and CLICK HERE.

Here are the most important parts from the posts:


(Sheriff Badge and a Blog Copying Update)

Well, first of all I think this blog copying has ended- as far as plagiarizing.
For those of you who don't know what plagiarizing is, here is a better definition then I could ever give provided by dictionary.com:

(When searching that, it linked to the real word which is plagiarism)

Which I DO have rights to my blog, and COPYRIGHTED as you guys who actually scroll down to the bottom of my blog can see:

So does snowyclaw.....Which brings me to my next point.
Magic797 has decided to copy-and-paste SNOWYCLAW's Posts now! (Still using the same exact format as my blog although..)

Snowyclaw posted this first... I even have proof:
At 12:22PM

Then Magic797 posted this:


Wow, now read the last enlarged picture.
She says she could care less and that I only want to start a fight. Well, it seems that she doesn't.
A few days ago I commented on everything she copied and how so.
She copied my iPod Nano down to the exact color - light blue.
Now it's changed to hot pink XD
Also, thanks for being so supportive everyone - but please don't be too mean.
I don't hang with mean people, I can guarantee you that.
I just have very supportive readers ^-^ 
You think I won't stop my blog? Oh, please. I will screen record me doing it if you want, if you keep this plagiarizing up.
Well, I'm not going to be posting anything more about this since it's getting a little too personal for the blog. Unless she starts copying-and-pasting my posts again..then I have a right to fine her.
Please tell snowyclaw about this too, as their about of this now. Snowy is my buddy, so I will tell snowy that too.
(Serious Update- Please Read)
 I cannot Believe how Magic797 keeps copying my blog. Here is a link to her blog.
Her blog looks more like the old style of freedom, but that's exactly why I changed it.
Here is a list of all the ways she copied my blog:

  • The Old Background (Stars) She said she would change it after I made her banner, and she did for a day but then switched it back.
  • The tabs style and font. (Thats why the font went back to it's old style after the update)
  • If you look, she exactly copied and pasted her Update post from 5/10 from mine, only leaving out a few things and adding in a few from my Update post.
  • She copied my poll that was my first and that i've always had from January 2011, What is your favorite animal? (That's why all the animals aren't listed)
  • She copied my iPod Nano app and the Jammer of the Week poll idea right after I added them
  • Every time I add a new page, she copies it and Copys and pastes what I have written on there.
  • Her Jammer of the week intro copied mine.
  • ^ Same with the 'Ask Magic Page'
  • ^Copied my exact scammers list
  • ^Copied my 'Contest page' intro word for word.
  • ^And my 'FAQs' page intro.
We have had some other issues going on, so that's why I made her a banner. She then wasn't that appreciative, and kept asking for advantage of. Now she asked me how to make a signature like mine, and so on and so forth. Now for mainly this reason and some others,
Because the only way to stop copiers is for them having nothing to copy, right?
I don't really ask you to do anything, but be aware of my reasoning. If you want to help, you could ask her to stop in comments on her blog. I have asked her many times, she said she would but she only changed the background and a day later changed it back.
 So yeah, those are my old posts that had completely good reasoning. She started posting a lot about me on her blog, and this didn't really get resolved until 2 months later when she finally removed her blog. 
But guess what?! She's plargiarzing again!
 Yes, with her new blog "Animal Jam Life", click here to see it. She put it back up after she scammed Imperative, which you can scroll down to one of my old posts to read about. I guess she thinks that people won't hate on her cause she's "rare" now.

Just by looking at her blog, you can see that she's copied the basic structure of my blog. Yeah, anyone who works with blogger can use this template, so it's not considered illegal plagiarizing,  just copying. Then you can see that she's copied my bright letters on black backgrounds idea, which yeah, anyone can do, so it's considered copying. She has the "meet the authors" thing in the same area as I do, with images. She has the "search this blog" in the same place I do, too. She stole the images from my sidebar, and placed them on her sidebar too. I got them from Sheesh4's Animal Jam Insiders and I have mentioned credit to her in my past posts, even though we don't own the images, Animal Jam does. So it's considered copying. She has the "Quotes" in the same place I do, too.. which irks me a lot. Anyone can do that, and she didn't copy my quotes directly, so it's copying. (I asked these people their permission to use their quotes on my blog) She also has the scrolling text in the same spot I do, which is considered copying because yes, I did a 'How-to' post on how to do that, but it bugs me how it's just like mine, and just adds to the factors that she's copying.

But look at the top of the blog.
The tabs read, "Home - About Us - Post Requests - Lessons of Jamaa - Rarity Scan - Ask Us? - Truth Is?"
Sounds a bit familiar, doesn't it? Well let's explore a bit further. Click here to visit her "Lessons of Jamaa" page. I created up the term, "Lessons of Jamaa" with my own brain, I didn't steal it from someone else, and no, I don't have a patent on it, but I do have copyright rights on my blog, all blogger blogs do. She seems to have "Episodes" instead of specific numbered posts.. and they all follow the basic themes that mine do. Admitting you scammed before, Losing friends to rares, and one is actually about me. I've posted about her, yes, but I don't recall doing anything to harm her. Sure, I've been a little harsh before, as some of you have witnessed in my recent posts and comments, which I did apologize for. But yeah, everyone can be a bit rude at times. I've never plagiarized her past posts, have I? I think not.

Now let's move to Magic's "Rarity Scan" page. Yes, I did make up the term "Rarity Scan" with my own brain, I didn't steal it from anyone else. First off, I don't mean to sound like a bragger or be cocky, but I don't think she should be writing these kind of posts. She hasn't had a whole year of experience with rares, like I have, and right now is the rarest she's got (3 Average Top hats) by SCAMMING. I don't mean to brag, but I don't think jammers should be trusting her with trading advice, I already feel uncomfortable telling trading advice. >.< Now, scroll down. It seems she's done the same sort of thing I have, and has covered the same items I have, using the same pictures I did. Last time when I called her out on plagiarizing, she copied and pasted snowyclaw and I's exact posts. This time, she used the information that I generated, and just reworded it. Props to her for being clever, but if this was an actual blog that had millions of views everyday, and wasn't about a virtual game, I would most likely take her to court and file a lawsuit against her, and most likely win. (Just sayin'.)

She has the same "Ask Us?" page idea. MANY blogs do this, so I'm not too concerned. Yet, it does add to the list of similarities between her blog and mine.

She does have a "Truth Is?" page. But, it's not the same idea as mine. Mine talks about my past, all the mistakes I've made, and how I became who I am. But her page talks about the truths of other jammers. So far, it only has one post about her best friend, and how amazing she is. But I'm guessing she's most likely gonna post about some jammers that piss her off, so I'm excited to see what she writes about me on this page.  I find this revolting. I'm just gonna speak what I personally think about this. I don't think it's her job to post about how awful and how many other mistakes other jammers have done. I post about other jammers, and what happened between us, but I don't post about them just to make myself look better. I post about them to show what I've learned, what I've experienced, and what I've taken away from it, and hopefully it can help my readers be better jammers. Society is already SUPER judgmental nowadays, and no one likes it that way, yet we are society, and we do naturally judge other people because we're human, but this is just getting insane. And I can't believe it's happening on a scrony game like Animal Jam. If you don't like someone, you can debuddy them and block them, and with all the servers and lands and rooms we have, you most likely won't see them for a few weeks. And who cares if you do see them, and they act b*****y towards you? You report them, go to a different room, to your locked den, and they don't even matter. They most likely live hundreds of miles away from you, and unless you have told them your name, phone number and address (which I hope you didn't) then you have nothing to worry about.

Whoa, that last paragraph got off-topic.
Anyways, some of my friends were reacting to her copying my blog again, and here is what they had to say:

Magic is doing it again. Copying Goldy's blog and what she does. Like every single time. She thinks forgiveness for her "mistake" would be great for her. How is scamming a mistake? You did it on purpose. If you want to fix your "mistake", then give the tops back. You even said you were going to give one back. But you never did. Cause all you cared about is the rares. You did it to all of us. Copying her blog to make you seem like you know what you're talking about. Religion isn't a part of a mistake. Keep it in chruch. You're not a true Jammer, and you'll never be one. Forgiveness isn't going to help you for scamming. You could just give them back and get your own rares like how everyone else did it. Unlike you, Imp was giving the top because she cares about her friends. She top me that you said to Sebrina that you weren't even gonna give back a top. Wow. I would've given everything back by now. You started the drama. I did not start anything about it. She's just telling how you shouldn't be treated like nothing happened at all. You're ingreatful for what you did, can't get your own rares. I can't belive you would do this either.  Maybe be a jammer and actually give them back to her. And then you can be treated like you always have been. Cause right now you deserve nothing from anyone. I don't know how you keep doing this. No one should trust you by now.

(Note: She does use a lot of crude language.. )

Dear magical b****,
Get the f*** off her blog. Nobody likes you. Stop plagiarizing, you know it's illegal. You dont want to be caught doing illegal stuff do you? I mean come on, are you seriously that desperate to get attention? Are you really that uncreative to where you cant make up your own blog posts? Are you seriously that stupid?You are an immature 12 year old who doesnt give a f***. Just wait until everyone on AJ turns their backs on you, saying "hey look we got a b***** up in here!" with a sarcastic tone. I personally think you should back the f*** off and stop stealing. You do you know stealing/plagurising is illegal, right? Or are you just that retarded? I seriously think you should go back to third grade and learn about what illegal things can throw you into jail.
I don't know about you, but I do know one thing: what you're doing now can seriously affect your future. Lets start off with you stealing s*** off of her blog. Now, lets look at your future in high school. All you will be doing, while some get educated and others talk about who had s** with who, who's smoking p**, etc, you, on the other hand, will be stealing from your local stores. You do realize you go to jail for that.. right? I know stealing off the internet and putting it as your own page may not seem like a big deal to you, but it really is.
Long story made short, just stop plagiarizing before you end up doing this but in more severe ways, and you end up in jail, and then nobody will like you.

If she really is a true christian and she really wants to be forgiven than she should give back what she traded it for.

So yeah, that's pretty much all I have to say. All I know is that I'm sick of all this drama with her, I even gave Imperative my own Striped blue top to try and make her feel better.

That's all for now!


Saturday, November 24, 2012

Lessons of Jamaa #34: They're Your Items, Not Anyone Else's

Hello fellow jammers. I am RjKingBeast, a friend of Breathless'. She asked me to write about an idea I had for this blog, so here I am. 
Well, recently there have been a lot of scammers and "trust trading." Every now and them someone doesn't give back an item and then it becomes a scam. Or by trust trading, they accept a good item for a very non-rare item and that becomes a scam. My question is: Why would you let your guard down like that? They can keep it and never give it back. I would be struck by guilt if I ever did that. But some people don't feel as bad as others. 
*Note: This was November of 2011* I once let my friend (she is anonymous for reasons and she quit) borrow a pair of purple gazelles that I recently got. She was a really great friend of me and I told her everything. From what I last ate at dinner to guys that I liked. She was a great friend. That's right. Was. When I first let her borrow them, she was cool and stayed by me to let me know that she wasn't going to scam. But, around 2 hours later, she told me "Bye." and just left me there while she went into a locked den. I thought she was laughing with an evil smile on her face with friends. A few minutes later her friend and herself came to where I was. Her friend told me "Sorry for your loss..." and just went back to her den. My best friend look at me and said, and I quote: "These are mine now. You can forget me :)" and just deleted me and left. I was so shocked when she did that. I couldn't tell if it was real or joking. 
I was scared, like I did something wrong. A few hours of tears with other friends I realized that she wasn't in it for the friendship. She was in it for the rares. It showed me what some of these "jammers" are. They're not always good friends. You can't just walk down rainbow road with her/him and think: "Oh, I can trust him" when he/she asks to borrow. They're yours. Not theirs. Just because you think they're gonna be a good friend and give them back doesn't always come out right in the end. A lot of what I just said happened to one of my great friends the other day. One of her/hum "friends" asks and she/he let him/her control her. Like it didn't even phase her. (Note, anonymous people for reasons) I told him/her that she/he made the person who scammed rare. Not the person. She/he did. It was his/her rare item, not the scammer's.
I learned after the 7th time I got scammed: Not everyone is who they seem. If someone asks to borrow my items, I'm honestly going to say "You're not a real jammer" and just leave them. They're not a real friend if they do that. If they can't live with what they have, which I'm not saying to traders, then why not trade for it, not scam it. You should be grateful for what you have, and not what you don't. It's not like the end of the world has came and you just lost your family to it. Also, don't always believe what they say. They can lie to you and say their stuff was scammed or they were hacked. I honestly don't believe when they say hacked. Because most of the people on here are 8-13 and I doubt they know how to get into an account.
My grandma used to always tell me: "If you can't live the way now, then change it with yourself. Not with others. But only ask people when you need help. Moving furniture alone is really tough for my age." She's 89 and she went to Harvard. I think she knows whose real and whose not.
Once again, those items are yours. Not theirs. Keep them safe and trade them for items that you want. I am RjKingBeast. Thanks for reading.
EDIT: (Rj) When MagicDream said she was giving Imperative a top hat for what she did, SHE NEVER EVEN DID. Magic doesn't feel bad. Because she's a total drama queen. She can't get enough of her self and she can't get her own rares. Whoever thinks she did right was all wrong. Imp gave away all her items to friends cause she didn't want them. She gave Animalgirl58943 a pink top that she's wearing now. Imp was the hero. Imp made Magic rare. Magic did the same thing to Animalgirl58943 with the top hat nonsense. She's a lazy person cause she can't get rares herself.  I really dislike her for everything that's she's done. She's not a good person. Only someone with bad friends would be that cruel to an innocent little girl.
(I had to edit some words out, sorry. >.<)

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Long Time No Post

Hi Everyone!
Well, sorry I haven't posted in awhile.
I finished my music video! It took a little longer then I thought.. just kidding, I became lazy and forgot about it. D:

 I am working on updating my YouTube to 'Jamaa Productions' instead of 'Goldfishypuppy Animal Jam'. I signed out of Google+ on my account, which messed somethings up, and I'm figuring them out. Please be patient! If you haven't subscribed, click here and please do. c:

 Also, do you remember the story about MagicDream? Well it seems she just can't get enough of drama. I don't mean to be a big gossiper, but you know how I feel about plagiarizing. She copied my blog.. yet again! I commented about it, she changed it, and eventually deleted it. I can't remember what it was called, but she copied my background, font, some posts, 'rarity scans', 'lessons of jamaa' and my banner. :( Anyways, hopefully she learned her lesson THIS TIME.
 Also, another quick fact about MagicDream. She just scammed my friend Imperative's Solid blue top hat! Imp got it as a gift from her friend, and she was going to give it to her little sister! She was letting Magic borrow it for 10 minutes, but now she's had it for over two hours and has deleted me and Imp! I know lots of people get scammed everyday, and I wish I could help them all, but I really really care about my friend and this is a huge item. So, I'm just asking if all you readers could take 30 seconds and write a quick jamagram to MagicDream telling her to give Imperative her Solid blue top hat back? I don't know if I could ever repay you if you do. If you do send MagicDream a jamagram, comment saying you did, and I'll give you a shout out in my next post..? :) I'm sorry, I feel selfish, I just really want to help out my friend. 

Thank you all so much, for being readers and for helping me out and listening to me complain everyday. I never thought this blog would get to almost 50,000 views,  when I first created it I was bored looking for something to do, then I needed a place to  type out my story and anger, and I never expected anyone to read it.. thanks again,

Friday, November 9, 2012

Lessons of Jamaa #33: Some things NEVER HAPPEN

Hi Everyone!
Today I'd just like to declare something that might sound a bit rude, and a bit harsh, but it's true. 

some things never happen.

Yupp, let's face the facts. I'm not talking about crazy things, like saying that an alien is going to come down to earth and grab me and my computer while I'm typing this, and bring me back to his home planet called Kakaluuz. No, that's most likely not going to happen, but I guess it could. I'm talking about real things, like things that you wish could happen, but they don't. Now, this doesn't apply to rares. No. You can get any rare, it's actually quite easy, it is a kids game, right? It's not really that strategical if you think about it.. I'm talking about drama and stuff. 
For this post, I'm going to tell a story. Now, this story is about Gingerpawz and I's relationship, but in NO MEANS do I mean to hate on Gingerpawz in ANYWAY, I still love her and care about her and she's a wonderful jammer. If you leave any hater comments, they will be deleted immediately, and comment moderation will be turned on and you will have ruined it for everyone. ._. So don't leave any mean comments, k? k.
Anyways, So here's a story from a to z. (Ya wanna get with me you better listen carefully, lol no for any of you who know that song..back to the story >.<) So I made a post apologizing about all this drama that has happened between me and Gingerpawz, if you scroll down you can see it. She commented saying we could be friends If I wanted, but she was quitting soon. I was relieved, and I thought we could become close again. 
Yesterday, I followed my friend to her den and she was there, with some of her friends and a few fans. I was excited, and I thought she would be, too. I went over by her, "GINGER" "GINGER!" I repeated. She said brb, and went to her friends den. Shortly after, she returned. I assumed she didn't know I changed users, and she just thought I was a copier of my Admiral Rockypaw bunny. But after awhile, some random person came and asked if I was goldy, and I said yes, so obviously that wasn't the case anymore. Ginger played and joked around with her other friend named Mel, and I felt quite awkward for awhile. It was a little depressing sitting there, watching my old friend, who's bunny's name is Mister ArcticClaw, after my old username.. 
I tried to break the ice, questioning, "Ginger..?" "Ginger?" after she somewhat ignored me, I didn't know if it was intentional or not, I said, "Ginger, are we good now?" confirming if she was still upset with me or not. She finally noticed me, and said what I remember to be "I think so." or something like that.. anyways, it wasn't quite what I expected. 

I thought we would reunite, hug, catch up, add eachother, and hangout the rest of the night, but like the title says, some things never happen. I tried to send her a buddy request, but the sign came up saying that her list was full. She kept mentioning how she was quitting, which I assumed was why she didn't feel like catching up, or she just wasn't ready to become friends again. I don't know.

But, I respect her decision, and I'm just glad she knows that I still care about her, and miss her, and I finally let out the truth, and she didn't get mad. Even though it's not what I dreamed about, it is what it is, and I've done all I can.

Quick LOJ, but oh well. Had to get it off my chest, thanks guizeeee. o:

Wednesday, November 7, 2012


Hiiiiii. c:
Yeah, I want top hats to come out!
They are like the only good, main, rare left except for beards, but not many people have beards. 
I don't want top hats to come out just because they look so cool, and they're my dream item, blah blah blah. No. I've had every single color of top at least 5 times, and most likely about 40 different individual top hats. They get boring after awhile, trust me. Currently I own 6, and I'm sick of them!

I want them to come out, because I think it will be better for AJ. Many, many, many people have top hats. More then you think. Everyone says, "I see top hats all around I'm the only who doesn't have one but I'm not rare enough to get one :( whaaaa". You see them all around? That's because they are WAAAAY more common then you think! They are just overrated because they were in Beta days, they are a pretty noticeable, stylish, head item that is accented very well on bunnies and wolves.

Also, I think it would be a good wake up call for AJ. It would say yeah, rares do come out, bad things happen, don't get too attached to your items, because it's just an accessory on a VIRTUAL animal! Ohmyzios, wake up to reality people! o: I think if top hats came out, it would show everyone's true colors. I bet a lot of people would quit, because they would say, "I've spent x amount of time on this game, working so hard for this, and it's all gone!" You didn't see me complaining when my freedom wings came out, did you? Nope. I stayed, I didn't make it a big deal, I still wear them occasionally even though they are 'unrare' now, they are still special to me.

Whoever would quit because top hats came out, I guess they didn't really matter anyways, and they didn't care about their friends, because apparently their friends aren't important enough to stay. Oh, you don't have any friends? Tell that to your 80-100 buddies on your friends list. (On average, I would think a typical jammer has at least 80 buddies) Oh, they aren't your true friends? But you spend a good amount every day, or even weekly with them, and they are nice to you, and that's not a friend? I'm sorry if it seems like they don't care about you, you can't have too high of expectations for an online friend, and I promise you, someday you will find at least one true friend. ;)

And I'll be there, I'll be there when top hats come out. I'll be that one hidden jammer in a room full of whiners, I'll be smirking, thanking whichever employee had the glorious idea to bring top hats out. And I'll attend all my 'friends' quitting parties, who are quitting because they aren't rare anymore, I'll pretend that I will miss them, I'll pretend I'll care, I'll pretend that they were my only good friend and they can't leave me alone on this 'awful' game, but in reality, I won't care. Because apparently our friendship, or any of your other friends friendship, didn't matter, and rares mattered more.

With top hats coming out, it will leave others to creativity. Either still trade for the small amount of rares left, or actually use their imagination and explore animal jam facts, play some mini games with friends, make a cool den, collect sorta rare items, find other friends, maybe even finally complete some of those journey book pages? Who knows. 

Anyways, kinda short post, just thought I'd let ya know my opinion. 

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

An Apology and a Change

Hey everyone.
I just wanted to say, I'm sorry for cussing so much. I didn't know you guys would take it so offensively. /)_(\ It's kinda a bad habit of mine, that a few people have been trying to break... ahh, I'm sorry. Most of your comments mention about it, and I just wish to take my words back..

Also, a CHANGE. *gasp* What? Yes. A change. 
Today, this change is started small. I changed RefrainInclination's username to Breathless. You think about what 'Breathless' means and you tell me in your comments what you think it means. ;D I also made a new account called RefrainInclination so nobody could imposter me. ^.^ 
Also, I'm working on a new music video, hopefully I'll get it done by tomorrow, and I'll upload it. My youtube channel will be renamed soon. If you haven't subscribed yet, click here and please do. ;)  (ps: the most recent uploaded video has copyright issues, but if you use a firefox browser it should work.)

Hopefully I'm getting an Arctic Wolf card, soon. ^o^


Sunday, November 4, 2012

I just want my old life back /)_(\

Hey Everyone
I guess you could call this a "Lessons of Jamaa" post
Well recently y'all probly know about what happened with Gingerpawz's post, which absolutely broke my heart, to be honest. I hate how she says that I was just using her, I truly wasn't trying to, but to her, all the evidence added up. 
I remember when I met her, in coral canyons, right on the stairs. I was walking across to the top of the bridge, and I saw this pink and purple bunny with a top hat walk by. I clicked her, and I somewhat recognized her username. I rudely asked, "What for your top hat?" and she stopped, and replied, "Oh sorry, It's not for trade, It was a gift." I was shocked, that someone could of been that generous to give someone else a top hat. I asked from who, and she replied that WitchHatBunny (LoveLost) had given it to her. At the time, I had just discovered May's blog, and I was a fan of it. "Really? You know her?" I questioned Ginger. 
"Yes, she is my good friend." Ginger replied.
I sent a buddy request to her, and she added me. We ended up going to her den and socializing a bit. I guess I made the impression that I just wanted her for Lovelost, but I truly did not, I don't know if you guys would ever believe me, but I promise to Mira, and to my God, Jesus Christ that I truly thought she was a good jammer. She eventually told me that I was the only one she would introduce LoveLost too, and I felt honored. The next day, I came online, and saw Gingerpawz was in Love's den, and I sent a jamagram to her. LoveLost unlocked her den, and I came in to see ginger said, "Someone wants to see you.. :)" I came in, Ginger introduced me, and LoveLost sent me a blue skull helmet, which was rare at the time. I felt accepted, and I wanted to get to know both of them a little more.
I hung out with Ginger more and more, for a few months I considered her my best friend. I told her everything, and she was understanding and polite. But deep in my heart, I knew I wasn't her best friend at all. It kinda saddened me at times, but I knew how close her and LoveLost were and I knew I couldn't break their friendship and I was never trying to, I promise you guys that. She would always talk about how close her and LoveLost were, sometimes it irked me, but I just admired her, wondering if sometime I would gain her trust, or have a friend that understanding. Every now and then, ginger would hint that she thought I was just using her to get to LoveLost, I tried to assured her that I wasn't, but I knew I was failing, I could never convince her that I liked her for her own self. I started to hang out with more of her friends, including Spino11, Greatshot, Goofy8966, and trickertreee. They were very nice, and I always felt so unperfect compared to them. They always typed so nicely, capital letters, and had very nice blogs. All of them seemed so close, and they all understood each other so clearly. I felt like the oddball. I wanted to be just like them, I felt I needed to change. I tried to be more like them, I wanted to be accepted by them, it seemed they had no drama, compared to all my friends hooked up with rares and dating and gossiping. I tried to be more like them, but in my heart I knew I was failing. I was never invited into 'GingerpawzHideout' den when all of them would be in there. 
Everything started to go downhill when IIIIIIIL came back to Jamaa. Late one night, I went to visit Gingerpawz. She was hanging out with this crazy looking, quite rare, jammer. She was talking to him, telling him how Glad she was that she found him. I eventually figured out that LoveLost had traded him, and wanted to tradeback. The jammer, nicknamed "L" was interested in my Red Top Hat because he wanted to have the whole collection. The three of us began discussing what he had, which included three tan carpets that I was interested in. Tan carpets were highly rare then, and he overtraded me one for my Red top hat, which he ended up giving to Gingerpawz. It was a wild night! I was thrilled! Over the next few days, I hung out with Ginger and L more. One time, L traded me his favorite brown beard that Snowy mentioned her in post from yesterday. I didn't know how sensitive he was to this beard, either. I traded the beard, he found out, and was very frusterated. I ended up getting the beard back, and trading it to him for less then half of what it was worth. I lost all of his trust, and even more of Ginger's. I really regret that.. we had so much potential to be friends. He was then convinced I was only using him for rares. >.<
More and more L said he was quitting because people including VisualEffects wouldn't trade him back.
Anyways, we'll come back to the L story.
One day, I went to see Ginger in the Deep Blue and she was talking to Snowyclaw. I said hi a few friends there, sent snowy a buddy request, and left to play Eat 'Em Up. I knew snowy didn't accept my request, until in the middle of the game a little sign popped up saying 'snowyclaw is now your buddy'. I'm not one of the people who awe over famous people, but I was kinda surprised since I had never met snowy before that time, and I figured with as popular as blog as hers, she most likely has a packed buddy list. Me and snowy didn't really talk for a few weeks, or maybe months, I can't really remember.. But beginning in May, and over the summer, we became really close. Every night we stayed up until 2am, in our secret den, talking about everything. I was shocked to discover that someone had so much to hide, so many similar opinions as I, and that I wasn't really that alone. Many people don't know Snowy like I do. She, too, felt alone and hiding behind a mask. She felt like an oddball, and together we became tight, and made us stronger and more confident. When our schedules became tighter, we wrote lengthy emails about everything, in real life drama, and gave advice. Eventually I became a spirit jammer, then an author on her blog, which at first I felt honored, but now I've abused the privilege and skipped some days, I've only posted about 5 times in the past two months, I'm sorry, Snow.  Now that doesn't really happen as much. We don't really write emails, or hangout, or talk that much. I still love her as a friend, and I know we're still close, though. Snowy mentioned her in post about L, and I kept trying to help her, but LoveLost and Ginger are protective of him. >_< I guess it seemed I only wanted snowy for fame, since "I couldn't win with Lovelost and Ginger with my 'evil plan'" but really, I just wanted to be accepted.
I truly miss the times that I was passionate about blogging and video making. I miss the times when I was trading so much, and I was able to poor my heart out in these posts. I'm not trying to sound cocky, but I miss the times when I had so much fanmail and people always wanted to be my buddy. It's a good feeling for awhile, knowing you're wanted, instead of people cursing that you're still playing on AJ, a game you once loved... 
I kinda covered up the truth, saying I had a writers block, and other interests. Let's just say I've been struggling in real life, and it's frustrating, I don't really wanna bring it into the AJ world, some things just don't mix together. 
I'm deeply sorry for being rude to some people, but these haters were just the icing on the cake, and It's gotten so bad I've just been thinking of secretly switching again, and starting all over, from the very very very beginning with friends, blogging, and being fake, pretending I know nothing. 

I don't really know what I'm trying to say, I just wanted my old  AJ life back /)_(\

Friday, November 2, 2012

Let's all say thanks to Kinyonga

Hey guise

Kso we all know that there are a lot of haters on my recent posts
Kinyonga is the one that makes me the most angry
She can't stay out of my business and even posts on her blog about how I've 'changed'
It's been what, a year? I'm not supposed to grow up and change after a year?
So whatever
Kinyonga barely knows me, we weren't ever good friends and now she thinks she knows me
I don't really go on AJ that much other then to see my friends that tell me to go on
I'm not posting on Snowy's blog much, and neither is she
This doesn't mean that "I don't care" about her anymore, we still talk and stuff and she's not mad about it
Yeah, the haters won, mostly Kinyonga. I'm giving Kinyonga what she wants and deleting this blog in two days. For those of you who still read my old posts, I'm sorry, but don't get mad at me, you tell kinyonga to stop leaving such rude remarks that are unnecessary. So everyone thank her!

There's a small chance that I'll make a new blogger profile, and a new AJ blog that I can actually post what I want about music that I like without getting judged.

So yeah. This blog will be deleted in 2 days because of Kinyonga. Bottom line.

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