Hi Everyone!
Hah, yeah.. I'm still quitting, But I felt this post was very important to make. I guess I'll post when I feel like there's something important to talk about, but I just won't force myself to post all the time anymore >_<
So, last night (5/17/13) I was having a hard time and panicing, so I turned to Cair since he said he would always be there for me. And he was. But then we ended up talking more.. and he said something that totally appalled me.
Hah, yeah.. I'm still quitting, But I felt this post was very important to make. I guess I'll post when I feel like there's something important to talk about, but I just won't force myself to post all the time anymore >_<
So, last night (5/17/13) I was having a hard time and panicing, so I turned to Cair since he said he would always be there for me. And he was. But then we ended up talking more.. and he said something that totally appalled me.
He has said things like this in the past, but it was a surprise for him to say it yesterday when it was pretty random in the conversation. It just hurts because at one point he cared so much and meant so much, for him to say something like this now vs. a random hater that I don't even know.
No, I'm not making this as a "Let's all hate cair and talk about what a bad person he is" because he's not, he ended up apologizing soon after, but I just can't forgive him.. it's a lot to call someone worthless, especially someone you were so close to, and knew how sensitive they were.. just like.. ugh.
Okay so, on with what I'm making this post for.
I am NOT worthless.
You are NOT worthless.
NO ONE is worthless.
No, I'm not making this as a "Let's all hate cair and talk about what a bad person he is" because he's not, he ended up apologizing soon after, but I just can't forgive him.. it's a lot to call someone worthless, especially someone you were so close to, and knew how sensitive they were.. just like.. ugh.
Okay so, on with what I'm making this post for.
I am NOT worthless.
You are NOT worthless.
NO ONE is worthless.
And NO ONE has the right to call or make another individual worthless.
God (or whoever you believe our creator is) put us in this world, on this earth, for a REASON, for a PURPOSE, not just to EXIST and wander. You are here INTENTIONALLY. You are not a MISTAKE, an ACCIDENT, (even if you were born as an accident.. you're WANTED, you were APPRECIATED, and put on this earth to LOVE, CARE, & DO GOOD.
I don't care whoever you believe in, most religions fall under what's stated above. ^
God (or whoever you believe our creator is) put us in this world, on this earth, for a REASON, for a PURPOSE, not just to EXIST and wander. You are here INTENTIONALLY. You are not a MISTAKE, an ACCIDENT, (even if you were born as an accident.. you're WANTED, you were APPRECIATED, and put on this earth to LOVE, CARE, & DO GOOD.
I don't care whoever you believe in, most religions fall under what's stated above. ^
You are a HUMAN BEING. The most intelligent species on this planet. Feel proud of that. We can literally accomplish anything our brains want. How is that worthless? Look how sophisticated and thought out our body is. It is not worthless.
It doesn't matter your size/weight/height/looks/beliefs/religion or anything, it still does not mean you're worthless.
I like heavy metal music. I want piercings and tattoos. I wear band tees, ripped skinny jeans, and vans, along with whatever I want. I have stretched ears. I have depression and severe anxiety and tend to panic a lot. I have my own individual face that you may consider ugly or attractive. I am a Christian. I have done/do drugs. I self harm. I love to read and write. I love social studies. I try to inspire people. I have my own beliefs.
NONE OF THESE ABOVE STATEMENTS ^^^ MAKE ME WORTHLESS.
I am still a human being who wants to be loved.
A LOT, and I mean A LOT of people disagree and have their own opinions of what I wrote above. And honestly, Cair hates most of those statements. A lot of people hate metal and think it's satanic, a lot of people think piercings and tattoos go against their beliefs, a lot of people think stretched ears (gauges) are DISGUSTING, a lot of people think depression and anxiety is just something you can get over with and is for attention, a lot of people think I'm ugly, a lot of people don't believe in Christianity, most people are against drugs, people think self harming is just for attention, and many people hate my beliefs.
No matter WHAT your opinion on me is or your beliefs I AM still NOT worthless, and never will be.
JUST BECAUSE I'm different from you, I AM NOT worthless.
This isn't the first time I've been called this, and won't be the last.
(I'm not looking for sympathy in what I just wrote about myself above)
Honestly, Cair hated/disagreed with most things I wrote about me. Maybe that's why he said what he said, maybe he was just angry, maybe not, the world may never know.
Sure, I already have the self esteem of an ant, I already feel as though I'm worthless (Cair already knew this) but that still does not give you the right to reinforce it. (I don't need any sympathy comments)
You do not have the right to call someone worthless. They are equal to you, whether you like it or not. You can call them any name you want (although I'd rather you not) but they are still NOT worthless, and calling somebody something doesn't make you any better.
As for what to do with Cair, I don't even know.. Any advice? hah.
This isn't the first time I've been called this, and won't be the last.
(I'm not looking for sympathy in what I just wrote about myself above)
Honestly, Cair hated/disagreed with most things I wrote about me. Maybe that's why he said what he said, maybe he was just angry, maybe not, the world may never know.
Sure, I already have the self esteem of an ant, I already feel as though I'm worthless (Cair already knew this) but that still does not give you the right to reinforce it. (I don't need any sympathy comments)
You do not have the right to call someone worthless. They are equal to you, whether you like it or not. You can call them any name you want (although I'd rather you not) but they are still NOT worthless, and calling somebody something doesn't make you any better.
As for what to do with Cair, I don't even know.. Any advice? hah.
These worms aren't worthless, are they? They still have a purpose.
LOL
I'll try my best to reply to ALL comments!
~Breathless
LOL
I'll try my best to reply to ALL comments!
~Breathless
I totally agree. I am SO sorry he said that to you. He needs to apologize. People need to respect each other. When it comes to music I usually listen to the more unusual things.. Like Funreal Suits and Sleep Party People.
ReplyDeleteI'm also really sorry you have depression and hurt yourself. :( This is really inspiring. Sometimes I get upset like today because someone told me a lie kind of... And that person I thought was a good friend. Now I can't really trust anyone. >_< Though thanks for making this post. <3
Aww i'm so SORRY!
ReplyDeleteJust tell him that he is not worthless to you. And if he wants to forgive he will say, "Will you forgive me? I didn't mean that."
ReplyDeleteAnd I am so sorry that this happened! And I hope God will relieve you of your troubles.
Your not worthless, Goldy! You are worth begging for too be friends. You are worth 1000,000000$! Everyone is! Its really dissapointing your quitting, But, Will you add me on AJ? ;-; (Edit: Im stupid, I know your quitting...)
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Too tired to type so I'll just put a <3... I have the energy to type this message:
ReplyDeleteI like Social Studies, too.
We aren't worthless. We never were and never will be. :\
fhd
ReplyDeleteThis is so true. No matter how much people pick on us, we are not worthless. We never were, and never will be. And a song that goes perfectly with this is "Gold" by Britt Nicole :)
ReplyDeleteDon't you mean Gold by Owl City? It really goes along great with this.
DeleteSo yeah, even if you still read comments goldy (lol) I total agree with you 100%, BUT, I honestly think you should ask cair if he really meant it, because maybe cair was just being cair.. but that still doesn't give him the reason to call you worthless. No one should ever be called that name EVER, sadly half of the world's population has.
ReplyDeleteI started following this blog recently, and I just want to know what the heck is going on with this Cair figure. Is he your real ex? Whats the story?
ReplyDeleteWow, I can't believe Cair would say such a thing like that to anyone let alone you. Sorry bout that :T
ReplyDeleteI don't see why people think others are worthless because of their own opinion. All an opinion is is a way someone sees things. Some people see the same things, and some don't. Just because someone disagrees with you on a certain subject doesn't make them worthless, a jerk, satanist, or anything near those things. Nobody is perfect, nobody is the same. I wish people would realize that and start treating everyone with respect to some degree.
About what to to with Cair, talk to him about it. Ask him why he said that, and if he doesn't respond then I'd be more than happy to talk to him about it. I know we've been very distant and I hate that but I still care about you as much as back then <33
~Rawr
Are Striped and Maple36521AJ back? :O
ReplyDeleteI'm back.. I don't know about Striped. But all I know is someone just sneezed on me -.-
ReplyDelete-Blows nose while crawling around Fauna and Maple-
ReplyDeleteIT'S TEH BARNEYSAURUS THE STALKING BARNEYSAURUS THE HIGH PITCHED SQUEAKY ROARING BARNEYSAURUS
ReplyDeleteThere's already spam on this page are we adding to it 0-0
ReplyDeleteIf someone's gotta spam at least put some comedy in it like this:
All of a sudden, the running machine stops inactive on its rails, and the dude has to sell his barneysaurus. Go to Barney-Proof-Place at Sesame Street to prevent the poor dude from selling his barneysaurus.
NUU DON'T SELL ME!
ReplyDeleteI'm confused XD so, StripedClaw is stalking us and crawling around us, and Maple is the barneysaurus? O_O
ReplyDeleteOnce upon a time there was a Truth of Jamaa written on a scroll with green trees all over it in a land far away. There was a page explaining how I'm not worthless and I'm epic where people like the epic me would troll around on. Like right now. And magical ponies would fly around! It was so magical they would throw jellybeanz and give out free barney pets! But one day a random person came up and said, IMMA DELETE ALL OF FAUNA'S FREINDS COMMENTS! The unicorns were sad and hid, and they didn't throw jellybeans or give out barney pets. StripedClaw and Maple were sad. But one day Fauna wanted revenge! So she rescued the unicorns! Now the unicorns run around freely giving jellybeans and barney pets on the page that says im not worthless and im epic, chasing nyan cat and throwing sparkles! The evil my little pony characters were jealous of the unicorns (but not rarity o-o) so they attack! They used jelly to control their powers! Though you are the unicorns only hope .. . because Fauna won't save them again D: Get your lassos kiddies! And when you defeated the mlp characters (BUT NOT RARITY >:U) reply
ReplyDeleteO3O..
O3O
O3O
-Picks old and dusty paper off of ground and shows to Fauna- . . . . . . What is this?
ReplyDelete*Reads paper* Esmon truce collabriniti delvus embrees tamaron chez sacorski. . Remember our "Tell your future by reading playing cards" thing..?
ReplyDeleteWait, Esmon truce callabriniti delvus embrees tamaron chez sacorski? That's Mosianican for "One who speaks is one who can't hear, one who sees is one who can't speak."
ReplyDeleteForget about the stupid paper! *crumples and throws into squirrel burrow- Do squirrels even make burrows... *crumples paper and throws into barney's unicorn*
ReplyDeleteImma talk randomness, just agree with me o_o
ReplyDeleteHi breathless, I'm Sorry about your relationship with Cair. After reading this, i see how much he meant to you.
ReplyDeleteYOU are not worthless! no one is! Like you said, God gave us a reason to be on this planet we live on. We all have our destiny's. Everyone is special and beautiful/handsome no matter of your race/weight/height/religion ETC.
Im glad that Cair apologized after what he said to you.
i understand he's in a lot of pressure too and is as confused as you are, but nicer words would have been nicer in my view.
Anyways this doesn't have to do with me so you can just ignore what i am saying
Good luck! I have faith in you :)
-TheSafari07
-Sniffles- That's the most beautiful speech I've ever heard. :D
DeleteAmen!
ReplyDeleteStill distracted by the worms... ROFL.
ReplyDeleteYou do drugs? Omg that is so wrong. I am sorry, but that is just wrong.
ReplyDeleteWait.... wait a minute... WAIT ARE YOU AN ADULT???!!! OKAY, I TAKE BACK ALL GOOD THINGS I'VE SAID ABOUT THIS!!! OMZ!!! OMZ!!! THAT IS JUST SO WRONG!!!! DRUGS ARE HORRIBLE!!! OMZ!!! I AM HAVING A MELTDOWN!!!!!
ReplyDeleteSorry.... that was just weird... But still. I thought a KID was writing on this blog!!
DeleteNO NEED TO MAKE HER FEEL WORSE. GET FEELINGS.
DeleteI am worthless.
ReplyDeleteNo one really cares about me.
I don't do any sports.
I'm fat in people's mind.
I'm bullied.
I don't deserve a life.
I am worthless.
Even though this comment is extremely late...
DeleteNo one is worthless, and if you didn't deserve a life, you wouldn't be living one right now. I don't do sports either, and no matter our appearances, we are all equal. Even though you may feel alone, MILLIONS of others are going through what you are going through right now. And even though those numbers may not help, there is nothing you can do except stay strong, stand up for yourself, and find a shoulder to cry on. Ignoring what others say never helps, eventually you'll have to listen to those mean words, but you can tell those people, "I think you should be more careful about what you say, because those words could really hurt someone. In the end, bullying me will only make your life worse. And just remember, karma never lets you get away with bullying. Someday, maybe in a week, maybe in a month, maybe in 20 years, you will regret bullying me, and just so you know, bullying me doesn't make you cool, it doesn't give you power, it gives you shame and guilt. Do you want to live your life knowing you've permanently scarred me? I didn't think so", and then simply walk away.
If you read this, buddy me on AJ,I'm AJpaleggs.
Good luck :)
I am bullied so I cut myself... I don't really wanna go into detail but it just hurts...
ReplyDeleteEveryone does get bullied even me but she is right you are never worthless!
ReplyDeleteI am a Christian too and i am sorry for you.You are not worthless ok? And if anybody says that don't waste your breath on them.Live life without having to put up with people cause YOLO
ReplyDeleteHow is this fake? And why would you read this if YOUR gonna bully? If its fake you just made it REAL! Cause YOU are bullying her! If you think she is a fag then why are you even here? You get a life if you want other people to! .-.
ReplyDeleteWho on Earth would say this? If there is such thing as a black hear, this guy has it. I love how you say you're not worthless, because if I was on your situation, I would cry. But you stayed strong! Your not worthless, your the most epic person I know :) I would follow you if there was a button lol
ReplyDeleteJesus loves you, and he died for you. He wants you to remember him and not be depressed, and The Lord who loves you so so so so much wants you to not harm yourself either. Stay healthy, don't hurt yourself and rejoice because our Heavenly Father loves you, and will take you to the most perfect place ever and wipe your tears away and you can be with him forever!!
ReplyDeleteHave faith, sister in Christ,