All great things must come to an end..

Hey!

Yeah, I'm still here, kinda..

I check the blog like.. errr.. once a week or so.

So, I guess I have a lot of updating to do. 

As most of you know, I had a very long strong relationship with Cair starting in September 2012. Yes, I was debating making a long post about the story of us and how we broke up and stuff. But, I decided, that's not really anybody's business.

I'll just summarize it.
At the beginning of our relationship, everything was great. We talked for hours each day, and I ended up losing interest in my blog, trading, and video making. Everything was great for months, we got married on 12/12/12. But, the last few months were HELL. Fighting a lot. Saying hurtful things. And we eventually split around two weeks ago. We don't talk, but we don't hate eachother. It wasn't a painful divorce, it was just a regular divorce. No one's feelings were really hurt.

Thank you all so much for 100,000 views. This is a dream come true. I'm truly honored, even though I haven't posted consistently in around nine months.

Thank you for always being there, listening to me rant, supporting me, defending me, and teaching me.

I've learned a lot from AJ, About being myself, working at things I really want, dreams can come true, you're never truly alone, finding yourself, and that nothing lasts forever.

I've had a hell of experience on here. Honestly, I've had everyone's dream, I don't mean to brag. From rarity fame, youtube fame, blogging fame, dating fame, and all that shnazz.

Yes, this means an end. An end I'm ready for. An end that we've all been expecting for the past few months. This time, I'm ready. I go on AJ every now and then to visit, but more so I mean this blog. Authors, you don't have to post anymore if you don't want to, but you can. I will not be posting anymore, unless something big comes up. I'm sorry, but it's time, and we all know it. Thanks for being avid readers, and always supporting me and giving me something to look forward too.

A lot of you have been wondering about how I'm doing. And I'm just going to be honest, but not get into personal details. This year has hit me hard. I've gone through a lot in my personal life. Drugs, drama, depression, and such. It's all getting too much, though I hope you guys don't worry.

(If you ever need to contact me you can add me on Skype which I'm on almost everyday, although I'm undecided wether I'll be quitting that: goldfishypuppy
I don't usually voice chat or video chat, but you can instant message me. You can also email me at animaljamgoldfish@aol.com, though I only check that every few months and will probably stop checking it.)

I love you all, thanks so much for all you've done.

Here's a poem that goes out to Cair, My friends, Animal Jam, Bullies, Readers, and everyone else on AJ that has touched me in a good and bad way:

Roses are red, violets are blue. Sugar is sweet, and perhaps so are you.
But the roses are wilted, the violets are dead. The sugar bowl's empty and your wrists are stained red.
The sun isn't shining, the sky's no longer clear. There's no silver lining, now that you're not here.
The rain keeps on pouring, there's no end in sight. You're laying there motionless, so far from the light.
Your beauty is unreal, your smile is the sun. But time can't be turned nor your actions undone.
The words you wrote before I read, "I love you so much, please don't cry when I'm dead."
A love that we formed, a bond that ran deep. A pain that we shared, a friend I could keep.
I wanted to hold you and wipe the tears from your eyes. Be there the moment you said your goodbye.
I must go now, for there are tears on my face and memories in my head. The roses are wilted and the flowers are dead. 

Oh and here's one of my favorite special songs, that idk.. I just feel like putting in here:

~BREATHLESS/REFRAININCLINATION/GOLDFISHYPUPPY/XXFREESPIRITXX/MISTERARCTICCLAW/INFINITYEEPDOUTPAW

Oh god, I'm crying now.


***UPDATE: Uhm, yeah. I'm quitting Skype. People suck.***