Crazy Visit!

Hi everyone!

Today I visited Jamaa, and had a party in my den, and TheGeneralNyan was able to switch my non-member den into member dens!

It was so cool!

Anyways, just stopping by, saying hi, hope y'all are well, if anyone still reads this, lol.

So long, Jammers, til next time!

~Breathless

(im currently still on aj right now)

Cussing

Hi everyone.

Sorry I haven't posted. Writers' block. >w<

So...

I've been going through the blog, and there was a LOT of cussing in comments.

Yes, I know you guys are angry at some things, but...cussing isn't the way to solve it. It's rude, mean, and frankly, annoying.

When I'm on the bus going to school, I'm literally surrounded by people nearby who cuss in every single sentence they use. They cuss so much it'd take a MIRACLE for them to stop (and the bus driver never even DOES anything about it!!)

Seriously, you don't have to cuss. Putting others down and being mean to others isn't necessary. 

Now, you may think I'm being "soft" for complaining about cussing.

Like: "omg, u thnk cssin iz bad???? gt ovr it!!!"

Cussing IS bad. I'm not allowed to cuss, and I respect my parents and listen to them, so I've never said a bad word before. I'm sure some of YOU aren't allowed to cuss, but guess what?

You do it anyway. That basically means you're a bad person.

If you ARE allowed to cuss, choose a site where kids are NOT on, please.

Now, you can yell at me or call me names for being a "weenie" or whatever, but I don't care.

And if you agree with me, thanks.

~GREATSHOT

You & I are NOT Worthless

Hi Everyone!

Hah, yeah.. I'm still quitting, But I felt this post was very important to make. I guess I'll post when I feel like there's something important to talk about, but I just won't force myself to post all the time anymore >_<

So, last night (5/17/13) I was having a hard time and panicing, so I turned to Cair since he said he would always be there for me. And he was. But then we ended up talking more.. and he said something that totally appalled me.

He has said things like this in the past, but it was a surprise for him to say it yesterday when it was pretty random in the conversation. It just hurts because at one point he cared so much and meant so much, for him to say something like this now vs. a random hater that I don't even know.
No, I'm not making this as a "Let's all hate cair and talk about what a bad person he is" because he's not, he ended up apologizing soon after, but I just can't forgive him.. it's a lot to call someone worthless, especially someone you were so close to, and knew how sensitive they were.. just like.. ugh.

Okay so, on with what I'm making this post for.
I am NOT worthless.
You are NOT worthless.
NO ONE is worthless.

And NO ONE has the right to call or make another individual worthless.

God (or whoever you believe our creator is) put us in this world, on this earth, for a REASON, for a PURPOSE, not just to EXIST and wander. You are here INTENTIONALLY. You are not a MISTAKE, an ACCIDENT, (even if you were born as an accident.. you're WANTED, you were APPRECIATED, and put on this earth to LOVE, CARE, & DO GOOD.

I don't care whoever you believe in, most religions fall under what's stated above. ^

You are a HUMAN BEING. The most intelligent species on this planet. Feel proud of that. We can literally accomplish anything our brains want. How is that worthless? Look how sophisticated and thought out our body is. It is not worthless.

It doesn't matter your size/weight/height/looks/beliefs/religion or anything, it still does not mean you're worthless.

I like heavy metal music. I want piercings and tattoos. I wear band tees, ripped skinny jeans, and vans, along with whatever I want. I have stretched ears. I have depression and severe anxiety and tend to panic a lot. I have my own individual face that you may consider ugly or attractive. I am a Christian. I have done/do drugs. I self harm. I love to read and write. I love social studies. I try to inspire people. I have my own beliefs.

NONE OF THESE ABOVE STATEMENTS ^^^ MAKE ME WORTHLESS.
I am still a human being who wants to be loved.

A LOT, and I mean A LOT of people disagree and have their own opinions of what I wrote above. And honestly, Cair hates most of those statements. A lot of people hate metal and think it's satanic, a lot of people think piercings and tattoos go against their beliefs, a lot of people think stretched ears (gauges) are DISGUSTING, a lot of people think depression and anxiety is just something you can get over with and is for attention, a lot of people think I'm ugly, a lot of people don't believe in Christianity, most people are against drugs, people think self harming is just for attention, and many people hate my beliefs.

No matter WHAT your opinion on me is or your beliefs I AM still NOT worthless, and never will be.

JUST BECAUSE I'm different from you, I AM NOT worthless.

This isn't the first time I've been called this, and won't be the last.

(I'm not looking for sympathy in what I just wrote about myself above)

Honestly, Cair hated/disagreed with most things I wrote about me. Maybe that's why he said what he said, maybe he was just angry, maybe not, the world may never know.

Sure, I already have the self esteem of an ant, I already feel as though I'm worthless (Cair already knew this) but that still does not give you the right to reinforce it. (I don't need any sympathy comments)

You do not have the right to call someone worthless. They are equal to you, whether you like it or not. You can call them any name you want (although I'd rather you not) but they are still NOT worthless, and calling somebody something doesn't make you any better.

As for what to do with Cair, I don't even know.. Any advice? hah.

These worms aren't worthless, are they? They still have a purpose.
LOL

I'll try my best to reply to ALL comments!
~Breathless

All great things must come to an end..

Hey!

Yeah, I'm still here, kinda..

I check the blog like.. errr.. once a week or so.

So, I guess I have a lot of updating to do. 

As most of you know, I had a very long strong relationship with Cair starting in September 2012. Yes, I was debating making a long post about the story of us and how we broke up and stuff. But, I decided, that's not really anybody's business.

I'll just summarize it.
At the beginning of our relationship, everything was great. We talked for hours each day, and I ended up losing interest in my blog, trading, and video making. Everything was great for months, we got married on 12/12/12. But, the last few months were HELL. Fighting a lot. Saying hurtful things. And we eventually split around two weeks ago. We don't talk, but we don't hate eachother. It wasn't a painful divorce, it was just a regular divorce. No one's feelings were really hurt.

Thank you all so much for 100,000 views. This is a dream come true. I'm truly honored, even though I haven't posted consistently in around nine months.

Thank you for always being there, listening to me rant, supporting me, defending me, and teaching me.

I've learned a lot from AJ, About being myself, working at things I really want, dreams can come true, you're never truly alone, finding yourself, and that nothing lasts forever.

I've had a hell of experience on here. Honestly, I've had everyone's dream, I don't mean to brag. From rarity fame, youtube fame, blogging fame, dating fame, and all that shnazz.

Yes, this means an end. An end I'm ready for. An end that we've all been expecting for the past few months. This time, I'm ready. I go on AJ every now and then to visit, but more so I mean this blog. Authors, you don't have to post anymore if you don't want to, but you can. I will not be posting anymore, unless something big comes up. I'm sorry, but it's time, and we all know it. Thanks for being avid readers, and always supporting me and giving me something to look forward too.

A lot of you have been wondering about how I'm doing. And I'm just going to be honest, but not get into personal details. This year has hit me hard. I've gone through a lot in my personal life. Drugs, drama, depression, and such. It's all getting too much, though I hope you guys don't worry.

(If you ever need to contact me you can add me on Skype which I'm on almost everyday, although I'm undecided wether I'll be quitting that: goldfishypuppy
I don't usually voice chat or video chat, but you can instant message me. You can also email me at animaljamgoldfish@aol.com, though I only check that every few months and will probably stop checking it.)

I love you all, thanks so much for all you've done.

Here's a poem that goes out to Cair, My friends, Animal Jam, Bullies, Readers, and everyone else on AJ that has touched me in a good and bad way:

Roses are red, violets are blue. Sugar is sweet, and perhaps so are you.
But the roses are wilted, the violets are dead. The sugar bowl's empty and your wrists are stained red.
The sun isn't shining, the sky's no longer clear. There's no silver lining, now that you're not here.
The rain keeps on pouring, there's no end in sight. You're laying there motionless, so far from the light.
Your beauty is unreal, your smile is the sun. But time can't be turned nor your actions undone.
The words you wrote before I read, "I love you so much, please don't cry when I'm dead."
A love that we formed, a bond that ran deep. A pain that we shared, a friend I could keep.
I wanted to hold you and wipe the tears from your eyes. Be there the moment you said your goodbye.
I must go now, for there are tears on my face and memories in my head. The roses are wilted and the flowers are dead. 

Oh and here's one of my favorite special songs, that idk.. I just feel like putting in here:

~BREATHLESS/REFRAININCLINATION/GOLDFISHYPUPPY/XXFREESPIRITXX/MISTERARCTICCLAW/INFINITYEEPDOUTPAW

Oh god, I'm crying now.


***UPDATE: Uhm, yeah. I'm quitting Skype. People suck.***
 

Anyone there?

Hi, MisterChunkybuddy here. Is there anyone reading this blog? And, are the authors there? Breathless? Feelers? Anyone there?
Can someone post, please, just to let everyone know we are alive?

Edited: Thanks everyone for all your comments! I want to leave this post on so Breathless can see  it, but as I know you all want new posts, here is the first part of a legend I am writing!

The Quest Part 1

It was a pleasant April morning in Jamaa. The sun shone over Crystal sands, were the alphas were having fun with some jammers.

Greely sat in a shadow, with his glass eye glinting with the sun, practising his magic, with a book opened next to him and some shapes made from a dark matter hoovering over him.

Sir Gilbert was practising his battle moves with Edmund, as both were really skilled warriors and were never too lazy to find a momengt to practise.

Graham chuckled up a tree while he saw the effects of his new prank. It consisted on some tubes in the smoothie machine, so when someone filled their cut with fruit and put it into the blender, the smoothie would sploosh all over the user.

Cosmo was chatting with some palm trees and planting sugarcane. Soon a cocoa tree joined the conversation, telling the koala alpha how happy he was about the sun.

Peck, the talented artist, had her easel setted up in front of the sea, and was giving color to a sketch of the palms, the fishes, the jammers splashing and the beautifull tropical birds who flew around .

Meanwhile, Harper happily paddled around with her mate Marco, an sometimes they dived into the sea to have a chat with the underwater alphas.

Otto and Ruby were planning the travel they ere going to go on, thinking about all the places that they wanted to visit.

Sophia was galloping around with some other races, running an obstacle course along the plants, and next to them, Cornelius relaxed in the water.

Amelia, with the help of LaSalle and some jammers, was building an incredible sandcastle with all sort of passages and bridges and towers.

The only alpha who seemed to be missing the fun was Liza. Cornelius noticed this, and asked Greely, who always seemed to somehow know everything: "So, what do you think Liza is up to? She came out of her hut in the Township and that was the last time I saw her today."

"She is in the Sky Mansion" was the wolves reply. By now everyone had stopped what they were doing and were hanging to each word of the conversation, wondering what was the panda doing visiting Mira.

"She seemed very worried" added Greely.

"Who, Mira or Liza?" asked a lion who was passing by.

"Both of them" answered Greely.

Actually, by know Mira and Liza weren´t the only ones who were worried. All the alphas and jammers knew  that as Mira was so wise, only something really terrible could worry her.

Everyone tryied to continue jamming, but the fun of the party had faded away, and the thoughts about Liza and Mira had supplanted the ones about the party.

This continued for about an hour, and then a bunny shouted: "Look!"

Everyone gazed at the sight of the heron flying down from the only cloud in the sky, which was no ordinary cloud but the base of the Sky Mansion, an incredible white house which had belonged to Mira´s defunct husband, Zios.

Mira landed and everyone saw that Lia was with her. Definetly, Greely was right, they both were looking very worried indeed.

"Well" Liza said. "I guess that Greely has told you about our meeting because he always knows more than he should."

Graham chuckled but Mira looked at him and he saw in her eyes that it certainly wasn´t time for laughs and jokes.

"Well, as I bet you are dying to know what the meeting was about, I suppose you should tell them, Mira." suggested Liza.

So Mira told them: "As you might know, th Sky mansion has a chamber of treasures. Those treausures are inmensly valueable, but thy are not precious gems and jewels and gold. They are magic and historic objects, and the future of Jamaa depends on some of them. And now one has been stolen by the phantoms. A very important one indeed."

To be continued!

Den Ideas

Hi, here is a post with some ideas for your den, some for members and some for non members. Lets start with non members.
Idea #1: Gecko Throne

For all gecko lovers out there, this is a perfect seat! This is how you make it, in case someone doesn´t figure out how:

So enjoy being the Gecko King/Queen!

Idea #2: Bed

Yes, lots of people make non member beds with pillows and sofas, but their beds have a big, big mistake: They don´t have legs. So, if you put that kind of bed in your den, your bed will be in contact with all the who-knows-what on the floor. (After all, do you ever wash your den´s floor? AJHQ should make a vacuum cleaner item) So, to prevent this, you need a bed with legs to keep your sleeping place clean and away from the dirty floor. This is how to make this bed:

So, have nice dreams! Good night!

Idea #3: Toilet

It is incredible what large amount of Jammers forget about a thing as basic as a toilet in their dens. AJHQ has  not made a toilet item yet, and anyway it would smell badly, so a dinner stool with a hole or something like that can be handy, but don´t put it just there, use some Shoji screens to prevent the horrible smell from getting into the rest of the den.

Idea#4: Cute pet.

Ever wanted a non member pet? A plushie is just perfect, I think foxes work best because of their cuteness and cat-likeness, but just put a bowl and any plushie can become a cute pet.

Idea#5: A den layout.

Here is a random non member den desighn that might be usefull for inspiration and that uses the ideas above:

Click for full size. Also, I know that I haven´t done most of the garden, but unfortunately I am a trully horrible garden desighner, and I am out of ideas. Maybe there is someone out there who wants to share garden ideas in a coment? :D                                                                                                          

Well, now for some member ideas:

Idea #6: Spa!

If you have a mushroom hut, a water park, or a fantasy castle, you can turn one of the places with water into a pawsome spa! Just put a TV for best enjoyment, an umbrella if its sunny, a floating table with some food (sledges make great ones) and a towel to get dry when you come out. Oh, and don´t forget the toy ducky :D

Idea #7: Monument!

I built this monument to wish good luck to Cosmo and the koalas who are exploring, but you can make one for any alpha. The Zios sculpture is optional, but if you have one, it is better to put it so Zios the Sky Father protects that alpha and animal type. for a Jamaasian then you can make one for every alpha!
Idea #8: Garden!

If you have a Bar Den and you are annoyed because the garden has no grass, then just fill the patio with clover patches and put plants, topiaries, torches, fountains, rainbows, trees and practically any garden-ey item!

So, I hoped you liked that and got some ideas, if you have an idea that you think is cool, comment with it or email a picture to misterchunkybuddy@gmail.com!

Have fun making your den epic!