Peace, Drama, and an Apology

Heeey.

Okay, yeah, this is another post responding to all the drama. People think that I directly hate all these haters because I'm whining about them on my blog. No, I don't. I honestly think Kinyonga, XxFieryWolfxX/MagicDream, Ducier, devon78303, and some other strongy-opiniated jammers who comment are awesome, I've met them before, and I enjoyed spending time with them. I think they are good people. I just don't agree with some of their actions. All I ever said was that they really don't need to crictize every single thing I do, and jump too conclusions so fast. Honestly, I read some comments, and you guys are making me sound worse than I am. All I ever said was that I mentioned Kinyonga and a few others for disagreeing with everything I do, and if this keeps up, I'm going to delete/stop this blog, which is still true. Y'all are making me sound like I'm sending death threats, Jeez.




My last post got over 200 comments, which I don't even bother reading every single one (no offense, I usually read comments on normal posts and reply to them) because most of it is just about all this this shit. But, one comment did affect me. D:

XxFieryWolfxX noticed my "The Truth" page was down, and jumped to a conclusion saying I don't want the truth to be known anymore. Now, first of all, why would I suddenly not want it to be known, when pretty much all my friends and my fans know it, and 2000+ others know it? I replied saying it is under maintenance, which it is, and will be finished when all this drama mellows down. Kinyonga on her sister's profile commented telling me it was lies. Lies? Really? You think I would make all that up? I even have witnesses, and I wouldn't poor my heart out and take three hours to type that all up if it was lies, plus, that page got my blog started, and my blog become more 'popular' 'cause I actually published and admitted all my mistakes, and you think all these fans are fans because they think I'm lying? Sorry, I'm not trying to be cocky, just prove a point.

People/Jammers don't understand, that by these last few posts, I'm trying to clear things up, and end this, which all my haters say they want to, but they can't seem to agree on anything, even when I admit my faults. Am I offending anyone here, or hating on my haters in this post? Please tell me if I am, 'cause I'm not aware of it.

Another topic came up in the comments, that I'd like to add onto a little bit. "Peace". 

 Someone commented saying, Why can't we all wish for world peace?" Well, in fact, many people wish that. Mistgaze then commented that peace is an illusion, which, if you think about all the bad things in the world, it kinda is. Kin commented "No it isn't! Don't say that!" Well, I know it's not really great to say things like that, peace isn't an illisuion, but I don't know the correct term for it. It's more of a fantasy. I then commented, and tried to explain that it's not bad not to have peace. (Sorry double negitive) I said, It's impossible in this world. The world would be boring with peace. Everyone would agree, and nothing interesting or new would happen. I'll make an analogy. When you're in art class, and you're teacher tells you to paint a picture of a penguin, you have a certain idea in mind, right? You paint a picture of a penguin standing on an iceberg in the middle of the ocean. But, you look over and see your friend's drawing, and she painted a cartoon penguin in a restaurant eating lamb chops. You would've never thought of that!, right? So in short, by not having peace, we can have different ideas and explore and have more to discover, even if it isn't always great. At the end, I added "even if it isn't always great" which apparently some people didn't read, 'cause some people commented saying I like war. NO? I don't like war! Unfortunately, war is one of those not-so-great ideas that I was referring to.

 Mentions of the book "The Giver" and "Wrinkle in Time" were in the past comments, and those are honestly two of my favorite books. I love what infinity commented, it's what I was trying to explain, but he worded it better, Peace is impossible because all utopias are dystopias in their own way. For example, if you've read The Giver, in the end it turns out to be a dystopia. The world is fair enough the way it is, because people are all unique in their own way and can explore. Peace in truth, would never truly exist. We'll have our own schisms and conflicts and there will always be changing tides. Like whats been going on in the past few posts of this blog. Its been quite a mess,the past few posts, like a war of defenders and haters... .-.
Infinity If you don't know what utopia is, it's a perfect, ideal world. The Kin commented, saying we don't get it. We FULLY get it, I also agree that if there was peace everywhere, it would be great. We're just saying that just because we don't have peace, doesn't mean the world is an awful place. We just need to know how to handle our conflicts. (Some of us don't know how to handle our current conflict on this blog..) When people think of peace and no peace, they automatically think of wars, raping, guns, murdering, and all that nasty stuff. That's the obvious downside of not having peace. But you know the different types of art, such as comics, cubism, sketching, black and white, pastels, that's just an example of not having peace, 'cause everyone's unique and has different ideas. If we respect each other's ideas, we can be happy and not have peace at the same time. Right?

 Kin commented again, saying there should be peace, and that her dad is a peacemaker. That's WONDERFUL that your dad's a peacemaker, and there are people willing enough who don't give up and want to make peace. Yes, I agree, that there SHOULD be peace, but in a world like this, it's merely an illusion. Anon commented saying that I said the world is better without peace and that I'm happy there's war and evilness and that I'm crazy. That's BS. I never said the world is better without peace, OF COURSE it would be better with peace, OF COURSE I'm NOT happy there is war, and OF COURSE I don't like evil. [But side note - just because some people like the fact that there is war and evil (*gasp* yes, some people do) doesn't mean there crazy, some people get very deep depression and there mind can change on it's own without the person wanting it to, resulting in the person thinking like that. This has happened to my close friends, and I've been expierenced through it.]

 Another mention of the Giver book. Ilovemypets8 says she would like peace, which I think almost everyone would. She gives an everyday example of how we don't have peace in this world, and Fiery and Kin agree, which I also agree with too. (Something we can agree on! :D)

Fiery then comments saying that I'm asking for this drama. How so? I'm trying to resolve it by not being too defensive, admitting my mistakes, and trying to come on an agreement with this. She says I should get over it, and then continue making my old posts. Those two things go together, I can't exactly get over it when I have so many hate comments on a blog I worked so hard on, and all these haters are a reverse motivation making me not want to make my old posts anymore. I agree that there is too much drama. She says not a lot of people read my blog anymore, which is incorrect. I'm actually been getting more pageviews everyday, from all this commenting, (150 more on average) and you shouldn't say something like that if you don't know. I know, I am part of the drama, and there is no way for me to get out of it because I am on one end of it. I agree with your last statement, saying there SHOULD be peace, but it is a mere fantasy. 

Devon then comments asking why I don't want peace, and that I like war. I think I've covered my response to that a few times in this post.

An Apology to MagicDream - I remember four months back, when you were talking to Cair and admitted that you liked him. Well, right before than, Cair had asked me out and I said yes. So, I came in, and you had just asked if he was single, and we both told you no, and said we've been dating since two minutes ago. I know, that was rude of us, I'm sorry. I've known you've always liked him, and the time recently when he told you that he was single, said he liked you, and you told him you wouldn't quit because of him, and that you loved him, then he came and layed next to me, and you felt betrayed, I'm sorry about that. D: I was feeling sad that day, and Cair and I started joking about that, then he actually did it, and I laughed. I'm really sorry about that, and It's most likely one of the reasons you dislike me so much. I don't hate you, like you said I do, I just don't agree with most of your actions. (Side note - I'll make a post later about Cair and I)

Random fact- I say "Most likely" a lot because I can never remember how to spell 'Probably' right and I'm too lazy to use spell check. xD

okay, bye.

~breathless